Change? Perhaps?

 A favourite photo as a first photo in this post! His name is Otto
Or perhaps I should say "Sein name ist Otto."

A word of caution: you might find this post unorganized and in a whole cloud of messy thoughts with much ramblings.

Hello! No, I'm still alive. I can't seem to put aside time for writing as I used to in the past; just because I felt that my priorities has changed. But, I honestly still enjoy writing from time to time because it allows me to express my inner introvert or maybe that lil' artsy side of me.

I've learn to embrace what wonders make up does.
A lil' dash of colors, pose and wham! Not only that, you'll look a lil more crisp and fresh at work!

So, I was just telling one of my closer friend about how I've kinda rapidly changed and it scares me a little inside. Deep down I felt my inner child screaming: "oy! hold ye horses lady!" because I felt that one part of me really want to prepare myself into the workforce and world and the other part of me still wants to be that me - that me that is forever eccentric, expressive and playful (oh, trust me. if you think I'm bad, now, I used to be worse!), that me that has my own way of doing things that are NOT MAINSTREAM.

Oh, I'm not always proper. Probably most of the time :p

Oh yes, I hate (oh scratch that. hate is maybe a bit too strong.) dislike being the usual mainstream next-door-person that does thing which, sometimes ends up quite disastrous. Really. For example, I've always thought being point blank at everything usually works but.. apparently, not. I definitely need to fine tune it and find the right balance. And, I think I really got to placate both my emotions and logic. These two *facepalm* they can almost never coincide at almost anything - like asymptotes in graphs. (oh-er..... you can probably ignore how I sometime describe things)

One of my favourite spots when I need me time

So, I told her that I think I seriously need to put in more thoughts before saying what my brain comes out; especially to people whom I've recently gotten acquainted with. I felt that it is so important because it inadvertently affects the way I speak during work and it might send off a wrong vibe? Or it might give off the wrong impression? So much things I really want to work in myself at this point in time! Or suppose... like what one of my cell member said: "CLEO STOP OVERTHINKING THINGS."

One of the rides down to Frasers. Thanks, Lucas for the heads up on this picturesque place!

Moving on, these days, I felt the responsibility of growing up pressing on me quite a bit. I'm concern over a myriad issues - family, career, my own future. Yes, I felt that my future is so important to me. I really want to have a stable career so that I'll be able to provide for myself, buy little luxuries with my own blood,sweat and tears and of course be able to do things that I really really love (anything 2-wheeled and the great outdoors come hand in hand! *wink*). But of course, at the moment I am very fortunate to have a roof to live in, and of course very very fortunate to be able to have a dad that is supportive of what I love doing. But ultimately I hope to be able to support myself and also give back to them. Anyway, less soapy stuff and next point!

I've decided to compile things that I can work on at the moment for a better and also less stressful self:

  1. Be less playful, especially work and new acquaintance.
  2. Put more thoughts before I speak.
  3. Be more DECISIVE!
  4. Be more attentive to my surroundings
  5. Be a lil easier on myself and stop overthinking 
  6. Be a lil less concern for others that doesn't deserve your time or you as a person
  7. Knowing ultimately how to cheat your way through the sometimes unforgiving world.
Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves.” (Matthew 10:16)

mmhmm...! Just about right. 

Lastly, a reminder to the emotion department of me; don't forget to add a lil pizzazz at the end of everything - like a lil' twinkle in your eyes and maybe some good dose of yummy alcohol. Never forget that balance is the key because ultimately, life still, is short.

Wishing both myself and the future the very best,

My experience on the Ducati Scrambler Sixty2

I honestly love how it looks. :p

This is a Ducati Scrambler Sixty2. Here’s more info on their website:

I’m defo not the most experienced in riding a lot of bikes but here’s my honest opinion on what I felt about the bike. Then again, I’ve been riding much more dirt bikes than road actually..

Everything I had on the bike was stock and I was riding without ABS the entire time. Oh, except that the boys at Ducati was nice enough to change the tyres for me to a slightly more off-road friendly tyres. I wish I could identify the tyres but, I can’t remember :( perhaps David Lim​  could name the tyres if someone wants to know. :p

I felt that it was a lil hard to manoeuvre in tight single-track trails simply because of the weight (or maybe I’m not strong enough :p ), the size of the body as well as the ground clearance was obviously lower than most dirt bikes.

But, but, then again, this bike is more for road-usage. Though, if it’s on the open trails, it was alright. It’s definitely doable for easy trail (well, maybe in case you’re riding somewhere and you wanted to explore some kampung road :p ).Suspension was actually quite comfy other than I felt I did bottoms up on some occasion when I was riding out from Mat Daling. (My journey throughout from Kampung Page to Mat Daling is approximately 37 km, at least what was recorded on my Suunto)

P.s: I also find it hard to change gears with my dirt-riding boots on! :( I didn’t try it on a road - riding boots, though. It might be easier since dirt shoes are usually fatter

I thought the power was alright for a 400 cc bike. The pickup was quite linear from 0 - 115 mph (approx) and there after the acceleration kinda slowed a lil. I road it maximum on a straight road to 135 kmph. There’s a lot of low end torque on this bike, too, which I really think is a plus point because then you don’t have to constantly switch gears. During the trip, we switched bike and my friend mentioned he could ride it up to 150 kmph. Not sure if that’s the stock mapping or not :p My friend swear the bike has more potential, given it’s specs. *chuckles*

The handling was alright, I suppose (well, I can’t say too much since my experience on other bikes are limited) and I think with right tyres, you can definitely lean a lil bit more in the corners. I think I clocked - in about 100 km - ish on road. We loaded the bike halfway into my friend’s truck later.

I like riding it on the road better, obviously, since it is designed more for road - usage, but it can DEFINITELY handle a lil bit of a beating in open trails. *wink* I hope my lil insight has been helpful for you guys out there. :)

The LED light! I love the circular LED light the most! That was what caught my attention, first. And it has 3 settings - low, medium and high. Not to mention, it’s a glass case!

Working for a better future

My cousin and myself when we were lil munchkins. :p 

Well, time certainly flies. I've graduated from university and am facing a different phase in life, now. The cliché statement that many people say about time is certainly true here. Life is moving too fast, too fast for me to be comfortable right now. Looking back at things, I can definitely say that I've matured much more than I was 4 years ago in every aspect of life, which is a good thing, perhaps for a better me, a better future.

There are some days when emotions and feelings blurs the boundary of what's right and wrong. And as a consequence, my pragmatic self tells me that I've made the wrong choice and that my actions are wrong. That's when conscience comes in and tell me that it's time to apologize.... I think for me, it's hard sometimes and my emotions and logic will always, constantly try to override each other. Battling each other at some point in time but I know for sure that the practical side of me will surface one day and slap the reality out of me.

But anyway, I've recently gotten back my habit of writing but this time it's more about writing my thoughts and feelings out.... I've been writing them in my little "book of thoughts" ( some, which I am not comfortable for public viewing), especially when I feel sad or down. For me, sometime it helps me to allow my thoughts to flow and to stop myself from feeling terrible about things that has already happened; things that go against my morality and how I should present myself and treat others.

Since most of that I've managed to solve and satisfy, I'm now faced with a bigger obstacle in life. Securing my future (or at least working towards my ideal life; my career, necessity, goals, and wants in life).  For the past few days, I've been deep in thoughts, weighing the pros and cons of the decision that I'm about to make since whatever decision I make can give a different outcome... It's definitely never easy but I'm working with baby steps at a time and trying to tailor myself to ultimately land in a place for a better quality of life.

Well, I also want to say that at some point in time we all feel insecure, because we are unsure of the future that lies ahead. There's no clear path and consequently that leads to all of our strange unexplained and unjustifiable feelings. We might think that this strange mixed feeling of unknown is perhaps due to the fact that we just fall out of our relationship, or perhaps we fear of being alone, the job we are having right now sucks, how can I earn enough to sustain myself of my wants and need? It maybe a multitude of things but let me tell you this that we are certainly not alone.

My peers, my close friends are also experiencing this 'strange feeling' and well, I thought that it was only me, that I'm the only one feeling this because I don't have a job or etc. But the truth is that, we will all feel it, maybe not now but later we will. Both my friends already have what they needed - education, job, stable relationship, etc. I thought it was already pretty much perfect - but they feel the same as I do as well. So I came with the conclusion that it's a normal feeling to have at some point in time because of the uncertainties of what lies ahead in the future. 

Sometimes, all you need is a friend to talk to. Or perhaps some me-time to unwind your feelings, or a temporary relief from the crazy hustle and bustle in life (but don't forget to come back to reality and face those seemingly monster problems you have). Just remember that God will always give you problems that you can solve so that you can be a stronger person. Oh, that, I should give credits to my good friend Jeremy, who quoted it. It may seem terrible in the moment but trust me, no matter which stage of life you are at or in what point in life, there will always be problems that you think you cannot solve. I may not have been at points where I have no job and no money (I've had friends that talked to me about this in the past and it's definitely not fun) but I've definitely heard enough and seen enough in life to know that it's temporary..... For me, I'll have my faith in God and trust that He will provide and give me all that I need in life...

We're in this together,